Chen Chronicles

God is Good All the Time.... and ALL the time He is Good Never STOP running the race..... NEVER stop learning!  To say that the last few months have been easy would make me a liar, but I have held on knowing God would heal me, move mountains so that Katie can attend a school, whether online or in person, that fits her special needs (and He has answered every prayer). Since there has been so much sickness with me because of surgeries I had, I pray that I can stay well so that Aaron's stress goes down and we have a peaceful and happy time when his mom comes to visit for Christmas.  I came across something I wrote in January this year when life was tough. I thought I would share it in case anyone else can use these words of wisdom about their marriages.  Choose to understand that love isn't always a feeling. Many days love will be a choice. It's a choice to press through and learn to enjoy the fragile blend of both the bliss and disappointment of two people sustaining a fami...

A very wise woman recently compared the brain to a computer hard drive. She said when it's full, it is very much like that of a person who worries and internalizes everything . I am that person. That realization is shocking.  I suppose you could say I have just experienced the ethereal "blue screen of death," we all hate.  Sometimes the awareness that this has happened is all we need to fix the problem. Sometimes, it isn't just as simple as black and white.  The simplicity in this idea cannot be understated, but sometimes I have to be slapped upside the head with something to conceptualize and apply the principle(s) to life.  Admittedly, I have lain awake many nights with so much on my mind that I could not sleep. A friend once told me that anxiety isn't a sign of  weakness   as a Christian, but a symbol of our own deep-rooted insecurities. Those are hard to change , but it doesn't mean I shouldn't strive to change them. Now, this isn't to sa...

Normally, I can watch a television movie and not be so emotionally affected by it that it changes my day, but this is not the case with the film, Like Dandelion Dust.   I held Katie a little closer when she woke up from her rest time/nap because it just further reinforced how much I love her and want nothing but the best for her.  The movie came on at some point in the last few days on Lifetime Movie Network and I DVR movies sometimes for later use.  It was a cold, snowy, movie kind of day.  So when Katie took a small nap today, I was able to watch this...and I cried....no, I bawled like a baby!!! The film is about two adoptive parents and a son, living an idyllic lifestyle in a nice home with their son.  The birth mother in this, fictional story, based off several REAL events, had an abusive relationship with the child's birth father.  He went to prison for beating her and breaking her arm.  He had issues with alcoholism.  This isn't...